28/07/09 - 15 weeks 1 day

hey everyone sorry but iv missed a week out of this diary because iv been so buisy. last monday my 6yr old nephew josh came up to stay with me and my sister for the week, oh my days he has a rediculous ammount of energy. robi was on a weeks holiday from work so we chilled at home and cleaned the house until thursday then we went with my sister and josh to the swimming baths, i lasted about a hour in that public swimming pool i was cold and wet and it was buisy because of the kids holidays it wasnt very nice, it reminded me why i wanted to join a private gym rather then a council one, after swimming we got some fish and chips then went home a bit later on for a relaxing sleep, which i needed after having joshua all day wednesday and him sleeping over wednesday night aswell haha. friday was good, we went to the discovery museum which was interesting. poor robi got a really bad tooth ach and wasnt feeling very well at all, we went back to my sisters for a few hours and he had a sleep which seemed to ease it off a little, so we took joshua out again to a place caleld gients den which is like a big indoor playground for kids with ball pools and slides and it also had a little go karting track as well. we all had a bit of a run round climbling through nets and up laddes through tunnels and down slides. all off us came off with some kind of carpet burn haha. we had dinner at my sisters then we went home, it was joshes last night so he stayed with tracey and i was at work on saturday night, my brother and sister in law steven came up on saturday to pick up joshua and brouhgt me a winnie the pooh mosis basket and rocker stand with all the sheets and bedding bless then its beautiful, they came for a visit and had a drink. it was nice for me because iv lived in newcastle 2 years now and this is the first time they have come up to visit haha. work was alright this weeked just wanted to get it over with and it went pretty fast to be honest, on my first day off today and enjoyed a lay in until 12pm hahaha bumps growing and growing its starting to get very noticable now its getting higher and higher, only a few more weeks and i should be able to feel baby moving about. iv felt good this week aswell. started getting a few pains in my ankles and legs because of being stood up so long which can get a bit irritating but other then that id say the pregnancy is perfect, not getting headachs anymore thank god, and my appitite has come back with a vengence and im wanting to eat absolutely everything in site hahaha anyways thats all from me for now ill write next week to tell you how this week went, got lots of wages to come this week so think ill be going out to get baby some clothes :) how exciting, anyways bye for now xxx

17/07/09 13 weeks 4 days

well what a buisy week iv just had went to work at the weekend and then on tuesday did a killer bus journey for a hour and half to go look at a gym haha i had no idea it was so far so i didnt end up joining that gym iv found another one which is close by so going to have a look at that one next week which on the internet looks absolutely beautiful a real luxery im going to put the money from me quitting smoking towards my monthly subscription which is only 35 pound a month then i can put whats left away to get baby some toys and treats and maby even a holiday next year. well then we get to wednesday im trying to take charge of all my finances (which is easier said then done) so went to citizens advice for an interview with an advisor for some advise on handeling my finances which went well ill get a letter about the interview next week to let me know the conclusion. thursday the nhs stop smoking advisor came round we got lots of information to help us quit and stay quit and got out prescriptions for out nicotine replacement therapy which we went to go pick up from boots be and robi had a massive clean in the house getting in every crack and not missing once speck of dust haha was a very buisy day, then we get to today, our smoking quit day, this is the first time iv gone so long wihout a cigarette, i had to do a breath test with the stop smoking advisor which my reading came out as 7 which is borderline of a NON SMOKER and a LIGHT SMOKER so i was pretty happy because it showed that all my effort of cutting right down had worked because robi haddent tried to cut down and his reading came out as 16 which was at the top of heavy smoker haha its now 10pm exacally and its been more then 24 hours sinse my last cig so im very proud of myself and robi for doing so well on our first day, been a bit agitated but i think were both doing very well indeed. tried to have a lazy day today because of such a buisy week and insted ended up clearing out the babys room and having a sort out through the bedroom robi started making the living room child friendly too so weve made a step fowards with getting everything ready for bubbas arrival today, good start i think so well done us ill keep you posted and post again next friday when ill be coming up to 15 weeks haha time is flying :)

12 week 4 days

a better picture of baby with little feet can see its little chubby cheeks and closed eyes got daddys nose and mummys big forehead hehe :) 12 weeks 4 days

12 week 4 days

beautiful baby in mummys tummy at 12 weeks 4 days pregnant looks like daddy :)

10/07/09

hey all, the scan went amazing baby is all healthy and growing at a good speed i was mesured as 12 weeks 4 days so im a few days behind what i thought i was so now my weekly milestones are every monday insted of friday haha, so ill be 13 weeks pregnant on monday making my new due date the 17th jan 2010, we ended up getting a taxi up to the hospital which i discoverd is miles away haha lets hope i dont go into labour and need to get to hospital fast because ill be giving birth in the car haha, robi absolutely loved the scan we both had a tear it was an amazing thing to experiece together, little bubba was moving his/her arms and lets loads a really active baby, its going to get painful when i start feeling them power kicks haha. when we got back from the hospital robi had to go strait back to work so i came back home for a relaxing afternoon once again choosing a cheesy movies getting into my PJ's and craving macaroni cheese i cooked some to eat in bed with my movie and a cup of tea, everything was going fine until my stomach churned i dashed to the bathroom only making it as far as the kitchen sink before i threw up all my macaroni cheese that i was happily enjoying 10 minutes before this incedent, it made me laugh so hard because i was more botherd about the fact that I was really enjoying my mac and cheese before bubba decided it was time mummy was sick for the first time haha it was so surreal, the wierdest part being after cleaning the sink with disinfectant and brushing my teeth i went back to eating the rest of my mac and cheese and felt fine haha. fianlly set my quit smoking day for exacally a week today because we fin ally managed to get an appointment with an NHS stop smoking advisor so we will both be able to start our nicotine replacement therapy which im really looking foward to doing as i will no longer be risking bubbas life for a selfish adiction. anyways thats all from me for this week ill post in next friday and let you know how my week went :)

03/07/09 week 12

well here we are, week 12 coming into my second trimester already, i cannot belive how quickly thease first 3 months have flown. not been very well this week at all, first i got a nasty cold. then i started feeling lightheaded and dizzy and struggled to get out of bed, which suited me fine until it started to get really unbearable. i got my first hormone tears when i was telling robi how horrible i felt, i had no idea why i was crying but i think i was just upset about feeling so ill for the last week. starting to see a little bump finally. its still a jelly belly but its sticking out more and more every day a few more weeks and i think ill be noticably pregnant.
cant wait for the scan, only a week to go and we can see our little one on the screen and get some amazing pictures which ill upload onto here.
iv calmed down a little bit now knowing im out of that little danger zone. the little em bmbrio is now knows as a fetus, it has hands, a little heartbeat and it can even have hiccups (reading too many baby books) back to work tomorow night, im really not looking foward to it, iv loved having all this time off with no worrries except which cheesy movie im going to watch next. but on the other hand its going to be nice to get lots of hours in and earn lots of cash to put away for bubbas things. sat writing this and im craving macaroni cheese so i think im going to go make some and watch my last cheesy movie before back to work tomorow (ps i fally got to put on that lemon maternity dress today because the sun came out then just as i was about to pop to the shop it started to rain and thunder so i still havent managed to get my wear out of it :( ) the next time i write ill be telling you all about the scan wooo only a week to go. in the meantime wish me luck at work without fainting from fatness haha :)

26/06/09 week 11

well what a loverly week iv just had, iv hardly left the house at all been laying around watching old 80's movies and sleeping and eating when i want. being off work is loverly i didnt even get bored haha. I am now definaly looking foward to my maternity leave.
nothing really to report with the pregnancy, still really tired though theres being a little improvement, the weather has being absolutely beautiful so iv been on fire for the last week with every window open and the fan on trying to keep myself nice and cold. robi's been having a blast on his xbox thought id give him a bit of freedom and i made myself scarce in the bedroom with all my favorite movies. its been nice to get some time in together, we havent spent a full week together like this...ermm..... since christmas 2007 almost 2 years ago haha.
i do like my time to myself as well but its being really nice having him around all week, hes being giving me massages and pampering me and making sure im eating and drinking, hes deffinatly going to be and amazing father and i think he knows that too.

19/06/09 week 10

bloody nora 10 weeks in already, just recieved the letter for my scan date this week which is when im exacally 13 weeks pregnant! will be into my second trimester!!!!
me and robin have booked off a weeks holiday which starts this sunday so only got my saturday night shift to go then a whole week and half off for me. i cant wait total heaven get to sleep in late and laze around for a few days. still being lucky enough not to have any sickness although my appitite isnt at its best and im not eating very much. im so tired all the time i can sleep for 12 hours wake up for 10 minutes then sleep for another 12 hours its a really strange feeling of just pure exaustion. i think i bit of time off work is going to do me the world of good

02/06/09 happy birthday to me!

happy birthday to me!
dad and his girlfriend mirella came up from hull last night and we went to metro centre and got something to eat. went back out to metro centre today and dad took me shopping. he bought me the avent steriliser kit for baby with all the bottles bottle warmer the works in it!
he took me shopping for some new clothes for when bump comes and got a pretty lemon dress which is gunna be perfect for showing off the bump at its best. on the night I booked a table to the big mussle and preordered 3 massive lobsters for the family. me and robin, my sister tracey and her husband matthew and my dad steve and his girlfriend mirealla. i had such an amazing day and night it was loverly, its been years sinse iv felt so spoilt on my birthday. i was so glad my dad came up to see me i told tell him very often but i miss him like crazy most of the time, hes a skipper and works away on fishing ships for 4 weeks at a time and he lives in beverley east yorkshire so i dont get to see him very often. which is a shame. my mum died on bonfire night 2007 of bowl cancer and i miss her like crazy, its very upsetting knowing i cant phone her to tell her im having a baby, if there was one person id want around it would be her, she wasnt just my mum, she was my best friend and everything she ever told me about everything was all true. she was a very wise woman and when my baby is born ill be asking myself alot "what would my mum do in this situation" if i follow all iv learnt from her then my child will grow up to be loved, comforted and smart. if im just 10% of a mother to my child as my mum was to me that would still be enough and more. i miss her alot on days like my birthday and christmas but i know shes up there watching down and as proud to call me her little girl as i am to call her my mum.

29/05/09 week 7

not alot to report from this week no sickness so far though my boobs have balooned up 2 cup sizes already! obviously no bump yet but dont feel like i can wear any of my normal clothes everything feels tight and uncomfy. starting to get really tired at work, my hours are so demanding so thinking about talking to my boss and reducing my hours down until im out of my first trimester which should make things a little easier on myself and on bubba. really looking foward to getting my bump and looking pregnant insted of just fat! hopefully ill get it nice and early so i can enjoy it for longer. although i recon by week 30 ill me trying to unzip my fat suit and will be screaming at them to get the bubba out of me.

22/05/09

well i didnt have to wait very long for a midwife (im so impatient) she phoned just a couple of days later and booked me in for the following friday for my booking in appointment. my midwifes name is mandy she is so loverly i was so terrified of getting a midwife who was mean and judgemental but thank goodness i got one of the nice ones :)
my booking in appointment was straitfoward. she jotted down some family history and took some blood tests discussed where id like to give birth the usual stuff. it was a nice feeling planning the birth it made it feel alot closer then almost a full year away. robin was so excited to be meeting the midwife she said she would book us in to have a scan at 12 weeks and we worked out im exacally 6 weeks pregnant! my due date is 16th jan 2010. also we are been refered to quid smoking as both me and robin are smokers and both have the intention of quitting now im pregnant.

18/05/09

phoned doctors for the results this morning and unbelivably came back inconclusive.
so have to go in do another test and wait another week for the results, did another test during the week which came up positive very obvious what the answers going to be but the doctor insists on doing another!
im getting more and more wound up by the day whats the point in home testing kits if your doctor is going to be a total jack ass and keep testing you until you actually go into labour then maby hel be convinced that im bloody pregnant! grrrrrrr :( popped in in the afternoon and saw the nurse who found it compleatly bizzarre that the doctor is insisting on more and more pregnancy tests being done. then to my compleat horror i found out they have the testing equipment in the surgery and there is no need to send samples away for results!!!!!!!
so why didnt the bloody doctor just test me there and then insted of making me wait. i cant make any appointments with a midwife until he refers me and he wont get it into his thick head that im up the bloody duff? the nurse however was very nice, she preformed a pregnancy test there and then for me and did a second just to be sure and finally I was down on hospital records as Pregnant!
about bloody time as well, i filled in a contact form for them to hand over to the midwife team and said she would phone me very soon to make me a "booking in" appointment, and finally the ball is rolling.

12/05/09

now im angry!
got on the bus all the way down to the doctors to find them closed!
why didnt that stupid GP tell me when i said i would drop the sample in the day after. grrr
honistly the people at this doctors is making me so angry. Lucky my sisters is close by so i dropped in for a cup of tea, left the sample there and she said she would drop the sample into the docors the next morning. nothing i can do now but wait a week for silly results to tell me what i already know.

11/05/2009

i'v just climbed into bed after what has being a rather bizzare day. woke up nice and early from the excitement of doing the second pregnancy test and dashed strait to the bathroom with a full bladder ready to turn the little stick pink...then wait for 3 minutes...
it felt like a lifetime robin made me put the test at the other side of the room so i wouldnt keep looking at it told me to sit down and relax with a cup of tea and wait for it to do its magic. slyly checking the clock every 10 seconds. finally the 3 minutes were up and I scurried over to the dining room table to collect the result. there it was... loud and clear a big clearblue +... were pregnant! it was a fait one but enough to convince me. my family knew we were trying so I phoned my dad strait away and told him the good news. his first words were "didnt take you two long did it little miss fertile" he had a point, exacally a month after my last period and we were pregnant! as soon as 8am rolled on I phoned my GP for an appointment and got one for later that afternoon. my sister tracey came and picked me up and took me to the appointment and robin headed off to work. the appointment was very brief I dont think the doctor thinks I am pregnant as he wanted me to give him a urine sample to send away and do another pregnancy test. Another test! I'm sat there knowing i'm pregnant and now waiting for the doctor to phone to tell me my test is a positive? it didnt make any sense to me. I played along anyway and said I would drop the sample in the next day.

08/05/2009

me and robin got talking a few weeks ago and decided to take the next step and start a family together. Iv wanted this for so long just never met the right person so i couldnt belive it when he told me he wanted to try for our first baby. I took all the planning very seriously started a cycle chart and tempature chart online and bought a conception pregnancy and birth book. i stocked up on folic acid and started taking it immidiately. I knew it could take us some time to concieve because of the contraception injection i was on getting out of my system. lucky id stopped having the injection 3 months earlier because of problems it was causing me (vaginal tightness causing sex to be nearly imposible...but thats another story :) so i started charting away after my last period which was 10/04/2009. clearly my body was made for a purpose because it did'nt even take a month. Iv just taken my first pregnancy test which was a big fat positive. it was'nt the most convincing little plus sign, you had to squint to see it so we've taken it as an inconclusive. im actually feeling very positive, im compleatly convinced im pregnant but ill stick to what i told robin and ill do another test in a couple of days time.